I feel like I should be childfree because of my health/lifestyle but I honestly want kids so badly I don’t know what the right choice is.

Sorry if this is the wrong sub because I don’t want to be child free but I feel like maybe I need to be.

I have chronic migraines, ocd, and adhd. Sometimes I feel like I can’t even keep up with myself. My fiancé already does more than he should have to and I can’t imagine having to clean up after/chase/change/feed a kid. I have pretty bad insomnia and don’t do well with being woken up and will be up for hours after. My headaches are daily and it takes a lot out of me.

I like my time alone and honestly I like being able to just lie down and watch netflix at the end of the day. But I want kids more than anything. The thought of raising a family makes me cry with joy and I know I would regret not having kids.

But what if I regret having kids? Or what if I just keep being a piece of shit and am impatient and unkind? Or if I get too overwhelmed and let all the responsibility fall on my husband?

I’ve always assumed when I became a mom things would snap into place and I’d get it together for them. But what if I don’t? I don’t know if it’s worth it to risk bringing a kid into the world if I’m gonna be a garbage parent.

I feel like I should be childfree because of my health/lifestyle but I honestly want kids so badly I don’t know what the right choice is.