I just need to vent. I haven’t seen my lifelong gal pal in person in over a year. I just found out I might have cancer. We agreed to drive a bit over an hour each to meet up halfway to visit, because I need friend hugs and comfort damnit. We are supposed to meet today. She just texted to ask if it’s ok if she brings the family with, and she might be a bit late. Family includes two young children and a baby. Hopefully the husband comes with to watch the kids.
I just wanted girl time and comfort, probably while I cry. I don’t have any energy or the skills to somehow tell her that I have zero desire to see her kids, that I needed this to be about me, and there is no way she is going to be able to be completely present with me when she has her three children with.
I’m already stressed out and anxious. This was something that was supposed to be about support and comfort, but just made everything worse.