I’m so lost

I think I’m in an abusive marriage. My husband calls me names and yells at me constantly. He tells me I said things that I never said then when I tell him that’s not true, he gets even more mad because I “wasn’t listening” to him. He blames me for his anger issues and says I need to help control his outbursts. He breaks things when mad. He dumped a bottle of water on me when he was mad. I never know what’s going to upset him. I try so hard to do everything right and always seem to fail in some way. Everyone we know thinks the world of him, and I am here, battling this alone with no one to turn to. I feel like if I left, I would have to convince my own family that I’m not the bad guy. I’m so lost and sad.

I’m so lost