Taking care of my grandpa has made me officially CF

My Gramps got diagnosed with cancer last December and I offered to help him through treatments. He did really well and is now cancer-free, but now he lives with me and its obvious he is in no state to live alone. After 8 months of caring for him, spending all my time with him, not feeling like I can get away for the weekend because he needs care, etc. I am CERTAIN I want to be CF. I’m 36, the oldest of 5 children and I have always been a caretaker. But this last 8 months was just too much for me. I realize now that I’ve never just done what I wanted to do. If I have kids I will just be stuck forever taking care of others. Now I just have to find a way to get my grandfather care elsewhere. I feel like an asshole, but I just cant do this.

Edit: the literal moment after I posted this, my gramps came in to tell me that he had diarrhea in my bathroom – but that it’s okay now because we washed his underwear in the sink and cleaned up the floor. God help me.

Taking care of my grandpa has made me officially CF