Thought of another reason why I’m not having kids [TW: self harm]

I just thought of another reason why I ain’t having kids.

I have a long history of self harm. I have gotten better over the years, but my body has a shit ton of scars all over from when it got really bad.

I have a younger sister, and when she notices them she ALWAYS asks about my scars. I lie and say they’re from an accident and I’m ok now, but it’s so emotionally draining for me whenever I have to make up some excuse and are reminded of my scars.

If I had a child, that kid would eventually ask about my scars. Unlike my sister who I don’t see as often because of scheduling, I would be seeing this kid everyday. I don’t think I could mentally cope with being asked about my scars everyday.

Thought of another reason why I’m not having kids [TW: self harm]