Was called an a-hole by my best friend because I don’t like to be around kids younger than 7.

I don’t know what it is but if kids cannot speak to me and tell me exactly what they want I find it VERY irritating. I do not know how to play pretend with kids either. Call it trauma as I didn’t get to experience childhood or imaginative play as I was always yelled at but like I am NEVER mean to them I usually smile and redirect their attention because it makes me so uncomfortable.

The looks people give me when I refuse to hold newborns or babies always makes me feel like absolute garbage but I’m literally so awkward and uncomfortable. I HATE when people ask me to hold their kids. They are so fragile and I’m so scared something will happen if they wiggle too much. I didn’t hold my fiancés nephew until he was over a year old. I always refuse to watch him because I am not comfortable with babies or even toddlers.

Do y’all feel this way too?? Or am I legitimately an asshole? How do I explain this to people without them looking at me like I’m the legitimate devil ?

Was called an a-hole by my best friend because I don’t like to be around kids younger than 7.